The Quarantine Diaries
All diary entries submitted are from the students of the Shoemaker Bugle. For confidentiality of our personal lives, we’re using code names instead of just the plain “anonymous.” The diaries are for readers to feel less alone and have someone to relate to.
I am so stressed about what I am going to do after high school. My family wants me to go to college but I know that college is not what I want. At the same time, I don’t know what else I can do after high school. I just want school to be over… and in the end, we all end up being workers anyways. I hope I can figure this out before it is too late.
Quarantine is one never-ending day. Even when things happen, it still feels like yesterday or last month. I’m not sure if I have insomnia or not. I sleep in between classes and that’s as much sleep as I get. I waste my nights and well mornings, midnight until school starts, watching movies. There’s just one day a week where I sleep. It’s different every week.
For some odd reason and I will not take responsibility for my own actions, this school year has been my worst, academic wise. I’ve never had such a low g.p.a. I don’t mind it though. It’s my last year of school and I don’t plan on going to college. I have “big dreams” or just dreams to not live a conventional life. I just hope I get by after high school.
Ever since quarantine started, my life has really taken a downward shift. I can’t focus on homework assignments or on life in general. Life in my house is miserable, not only do I have to babysit during school, I also have to find my own time to finish assignments. My family doesn’t even help because they’re too focused on the election.
My aunt is a heavy Trump supporter and she thinks I wanna hear every little thing about him. The one that really got me was when she said “The LGBTQ+ Community supports Trump.” That’s like saying trees for deforestation, like if the LGBTQ+ really was going to vote for someone. it’d be Biden.
If and when I do find time I get in trouble for not doing chores, once I start doing things around the house my grades slip and I get in deeper trouble. My sleeping and eating schedule has been ruined, not only have I been sleeping at 2 am, I also won’t eat from 9 am – 7pm. The assignments that have been given to me are just points to me, there isn’t enough time to actually understand anything. My mental health has been at its worst and I don’t know who to talk to about it. I’m at the point where music doesn’t help with anything any more. It’s just a distraction and I don’t have time for that.